Tuesday, 27 January 2009
When I had babies and then small children at home, I used to rush around in a whirlwind of activity, almost all centred on the boys. I rarely had a minute to myself. When they were older I was able to return to work, so spare time continued to be at a premium. By the time they were leaving home, I was looking at a career and invested all my energy in that. All those years went by, and during them all I used to indulge wishful thoughts of what I would be able to do when I had more time, all the hobbies I could take up, all those things I wanted to do but couldn't fit into my busy schedule.
Since December last, I have no longer been employed, and I should be putting my wishful thinking into practice. There is no whirlwind activity any more, in fact there really isn't any activity worth talking about, so I can do anything I like. But I haven't been able to remember all those "things" I wanted so much to do, they no longer seem compellingly interesting.
I had only a month's warning that I would be losing my job, so no time to prepare, and now that the Christmas and New Year's activities are over, I am suddenly faced with a void. Is this something that other people face? As the economic situation worsens, more and more people must have more and more time on their hands.
Today the weather has improved, and a beautiful dawn looks promising. What were those things I always wanted to do? What, I wonder, should I be doing?
Posted by A. at 10:57